I am probably going to offend some of you (and I am more than positive- I don’t give 2 fiddlesticks)….
As I am sitting in middle of BFE.
Right on the very beautiful front porch I stained.
I am listening to the critters howling at the moon in their own languages.
Sipping on an Adult Frozen Juice Pack and I keep thinking about a post everyone likes to pass around with the picture of a cozy cabin with a nice but small Jon boat and pond.
How each person says “He’ll yeah I would trade in my smartphone, the internet and electricity and live there!”
I am calling BULLSHIT on each and every one of you!!
1. We ALL like the luxury of taking a shit and shower of the civilian life.
Not one of us is acclimated to even WANT to think about life without the gift of electricity and those two important things.
I have been isolating myself and purging my anger and whatnot into cutting trees and their dead limbs, burning them afterwards to a fine ash of absolutely nothing.
I am working through this next phase of my life.
Believe me when I say I have found whom my Friends and Family (blood or not) TRULY are and the very few that are ~ Thank You For All of Your Love, Support, and Understanding.
The rest of y’all can WISH you could Kiss My Well-Toned Ace!
I digress (go figure).
Because I have lost track of time since I came here by again purging my thoughts, feelings, desires, and just WTF and WHERE do I grow from here ~
I have been without my phone, television (by choice because I just don’t have the time or attention span to sit for very long) nor have I had real access to the internet ~
But I am living in the “cabin” in the middle of nowhere and there is a small pond full of fish, Ginormous bullfrogs and snapping turtles.
I come outside before the sun comes up and I work relentlessly until I think I am exhausted enough to finally sleep (not yet).
I have dug up the roots of cattails out of the pond that are bigger than I am.
Tonight as I brought the trash out and to smoke a nice cigarette or 20 (yep. I live on nicotine and caffeine to survive) ~ don’t even start any shit with me about that because we are ALL healthier if I DO smoke.
As dumb and dumber ran out with me and went to the left (to the left) I went to the right.
Right there a deer and I made eye contact.
I didn’t have my phone but he (?) was curious about my cigarette smoke and didn’t move while I backed up to retrieve it (I just thought of Sir Mixalot).
But I managed a picture before he (?) escaped. He had been nibbling on all those cattails I had in a pile.
Finally, even though I can see the fruits of my labor and my clothes no longer fit me size 16 ~ to a 10 (at least last week) and my skin is most definitely showing my 1% African American genes right on top of all the genetics of the mutt I am made uP of ~
Seeing this animal in a state of eating blissfully as the sun was glowing down ~
TODAY WAS A BEAUTIFUL AND WONDERFUL DAY ~ I am sincerely grateful for it.
As Always ~
~ Ms. Mae