I am currently staying with yet another Older Sister ~ I am getting passed around like a bad habit.
>insert big cheesy smile<
To earn my keep I have been clearing out limbs (dead and too low), naturally burning up such said limbs (because I may be a fire bug) planting flowers, and for the first time ever ~ I got to get on a John Deere mower and mow the freakin lawn!
I can not stop mowing! It is so revitalizing. I completely understand why my ex never let me do It ~ talk about some power between the thighs!
Yard work is a type of therapy for me (obviously).
Pulling out a dead tree by the roots is not only great for my physical state but imagine what I am thinking as it helps heal my mental health!
I use to think I would not change one thing about my past because I felt it formed me into the funny, intelligent, and tenacious woman I am today. However, feeling stuck in a rotting rut, I am pretty sure I could have done without the last three years of my life.
As a matter of fact, I would almost rather not Be here at all than to live this life of purgatory I feel I am living right now.
I feel I am just wasting away into oblivion and not one person would notice…
Not even Ms. Mae…
But I do believe that this too shall pass.
Whenit does I am going to come back even stronger and more FIERCE!
In the meantime PeePs ~
As Always ~
~ Ms. Mae